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|Monday, April 9th, 2007|
April 9th, 2007
yorue a waste of the air i breathe
Wise up now and stay out of my space.
Don't ever let me see you again.
It doesn't matter who says they're your friend,
And I don't care who's around.
I'm walking away with you on the ground.
stupid fuckin douche. pray to god i dont get ahold of you or hope you get me down. keep running your mouth. we'll see eachother. shti wont go the way you planned. im not gunna fuckin go to one of your fuckin shows queer. you dont fucking deserve her. what she wants is what she wants though. bringing me in this shits gunna be the biggest mistake youve ever made though. nik, if you care about this kid, stop telling him shit i say tryign to get him mad, and tell him to shut his fucking mouth. (you can send him this though if it make soyu happy) youre done faggot.
|Sunday, April 8th, 2007|
April 8th, 2007
|Saturday, April 7th, 2007|
April 7th, 2007
|Monday, March 19th, 2007|
March 19th, 2007
i'm startign to realize,
you're jsut another fake.
im gettin to the point,
where ive had all that i can take.
Im looking for help,
in all the wrong places.
Im lookign for acceptance,
from all the wrong faces.
nothing left in this world.
Ive been trying my best but,
life just doesnt care.
ive been searching for answers
but, nothings there.
|Saturday, February 3rd, 2007|
February 3rd, 2007
LAST NIGHT I WENT TO NIKS HOUSE AND ME AND NIK AND DANIEL TRAN PLAYED NEOPETS TILL 5 IN THE MORNING. DUBLOON DISASTER COMPETITIONS, AND KRELUDOR SPACE CIRCLE ONE THAT NEVER EVEN HAD TO COME UP WITH A LEVEL 5.
TODAY I GOT NEED FOR SPEED CARBON BEFORE DANIEL DID. AND I PLAYED IT. FOR A LONG WHILE. ITS KIND OF STUPID CUZ ALL YOU DO IS RACE...
ANYWAYS, TOMORROW I WILL BE SLICING MEAT AND MAKING SANDWHICHES. HOPEFULLY I WONT HAVE TO PLUCK THE ROTTING CHICKENS AND DUNK THEM IN FORMULAS SO THEY WONT SMELL BAD. GOOD THINK I LEARNED THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE SPINACHE WITH MAYONAISE AND THE OTHER SPINACHE.
NIKKIS CAT IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN MINE. SHE HAS THE BEST ANIMALS. 1 CAT WITH A SQUISHED FACE. 1 CAT WITH NO VOCAL CHORDS. 1 CAT THAT IS SUPPOSE TO BE SKINNY BUT IS FAT. 1 DEAD CAT. AND 1 ADHD DOG WITH A COLD. AND THEY CAN ALL SEE GHOSTS.
I GOTS TA PEE.
|Wednesday, January 31st, 2007|
January 31st, 2007
its mah bday. celebrate bitches.b im officially insuranceless.
|Sunday, December 24th, 2006|
December 24th, 2006
merry xmas eve kiddlets.
so while most people are prolly having a nice dinner orrr opening rpesents or soemthing, im sitting here eating cold, watered down top ramen with 3 taco bell sauce packs. FIRE to be exact. usually i put 4 in there but my gut jsut said i should have 3. my colon is telling me 2 now. im about to explode. you knwo that feeling where it feels like the turd is seriously hanging otu your butt and its jsut being stopped by the seat of your chair and if you looked at your boxers/undies thered be a poop clod or something? its amazing. what ever happend to that xmas feeling? i miss it a lot for some reason. it sux. mayeb its the fact that im coughing my lugns out(thank you nikki) oir that i have to shit my brains out. i dunno. then agian its been liek this for the past 5 eyars. whoa.... before i forget... jesus man is back. hes been on the corner all day talking to himself. came back for his homies b-day i guess.
|Friday, September 8th, 2006|
September 8th, 2006
so im gunna try and explain what i went through last night. it was hoenstly life changing and the most insane thign ive ever experienced. so me and josh are hanging out and are tryign to think of somethign to do. so josh calls up this girl he knows that has an empty hosue htat we can all chill at and drink. so we call up pruckler adn turns out he wotn be comign for awhiel cuz hes goin to thousand oaks with eri c and shayna to buy shrooms. that kind of bumbs me and josh out and then we also fidn out josh has no moeny to even buy the alcohol. so i callup pruckelr adn tell him ill jsut go for fun. i have no moeny to buy anythign, i jsut wnated tochill mode. befoer we leave, josh gets like 20 bux from his mamasita. so me, eric, adn daniel go to the gym and ethen we coem back and pick joshy up. then we pick up shayna. so on the way there eric was liek "garrett, ill let you haev my portion if you take it at TO". so im liek dooooownn and i jsut start to egt ultra physched. the plan was for shayna and eric to buy an eighth, daniel to buy half an eighth, and josh to buy half an eight. so im tlaking to daniel and im like "youshoudl buiy a full eight and take 3/4 of it and ill take the last quarter and then il put it withmy half and have 3/4 as well. so we get to TO and the guy didnt want to give us 2 and a half eights os we wound up buyign three. so we have a an extra half hanging aroufd. soooo me and daniel decide to take full 8ths and joshadn shayna splitted theres up. this is everyones first tiem (cept for daniel) so i shoudlt relly be takign a full eighth. so we eat em all up in erics car befor ewe leave. pretty disgustign tasting. joshed loved them. so we strat drivign and after botu a half hour im looking at everythign tryign to see if anythign is otu of the norm. so im liek thinkignis that weird? is that weird? then out of nowhere it jsut hits me and dnaiel. i get thi shuge fuckin body high. it was tremendous. it felt liek i had chill snad they jsut kept run up and down my body. then we go to a gas staion and everythign is green fo rsoem reason. i dant really explainhow i felt, but it was insane. i was relly happy oto for some reason. so now the plans to go to this girl loreleis hoseu and ac tliek were normal and not tell them were all on shrooms. i immediatley blew it. i was laughing for no reason, and frkeaing out. i look at shayan and her face looked honeslty like a sketched drawing. ive never seen anythign liek it. i started to take sips of tea out of this cup and i kept freakin out cuz it felt liek the cup was literally swallowing me. so then im sitting down on the couch and im jsut rippign otu. someone gave me another sip of tea and athats wehn i lost it. once again i thought the cup awas wating me(and when i say this, it honeslty looked liek a cup swallowing me. its kind of hard not to freak out) so i jerk the cup off me adn spil all over me. i then had to pee really abd and it felt liek i was peeign myself. with all the tea on my clothes and sutff i didnt know if i was peeingmyself. haha. so this is when my bad trip started. i jsut got really emotional. i og treally uncomfortable and upset and decided to go tothe bathroom. i go to go pee and i look at my penis. to my surpirse its about a inch and ahlf long. so i start frekaing out and i lookat it and it jsut start shrinking more. it got down to abotyu half an inch and hten is tarted to look at it and it was withering away like my skin was aging. then i looekd at my arms and the skin on taht was doign that as well. so i start panicing and i loo in teh mirror and everything loks normal. then it looked like my face was liek melting so i ran out. i had a huge stomache ache and wanted the trip to stop so i wanted to throw up. i wen tout back and it was sooo weird. the trees looked like fake plastic trees adn the grass loomkekd liek astro turf or soemthign. it was reall yreally fake looking. i went back in teh bathroom adn tried to throw up. i coudlnt throw up for about 10 mintues, and then i jsut started thorwign up the hardest i ever have. my lips went over my head and i htoguth i was thrwoign up all of my insides. then i thoguth the bowl was swallowing me. i go oout and sit down and everyoen jsut looks liek giants. everythign was huge and i was so tiny. i was so uncomfortabel. i go outside and try to make eric take me hoem but he woudltn so i sit down (once again evrythign oputside looekd liek a set. evrythiogn looked pasltic and fake. it looekd really cool, but iw asnto enjoyign the trip at all) on some grass and try to prey to god to get me otu of thsi trip. i look at my arms and fist and they are liek dark boneslie a demon or somethignm. i look dowmj at the ground and it was all dark and ther ewa sliek twigs. i was pretyign to god but it felt liek somethign was lsitenmign to me adn keepign me form him. i odtnknwophow to explaintio. it mwas really scary. umm im try and end this quickyl now cuz im sick of typing. i started to stop havig abad trip adn jsut got really happy out of nowher eand talked to everyoen. the wall were breathing, eric hjad four eyes, fruiot snakcs tasted insanely good. it started to jstuturn itno teh best experience ive ever had. we lef tthe hoseu adn it seriopsuly felt liek iwa sleavign soemthign behind me. i dunno hwo to explainit. i dunno why, but it feel sliek soemthign that everyone shoiudl go through. its jsut an experience i fell lie everyone should have. i dunno. im doen. im sick of typing. crazy night thogh. ha
|Friday, July 7th, 2006|
July 7th, 2006
so ive beenm told that gettig drunkl by yoruself is jsut a big sign of beign an alcohilc, btu iv enoticed ebverytime ive goten drunk, i tend to flaot -away fromeveryone and be msyelf. not that i dont lie beign with my frienda or anythign, but i usually jsut fuck thigns up when im durnk. i lveo ho wit feels whenm im like this though. so i came to the conclusion its proll yebs to be liek this by myself. i dont meananythign perosnal by this but when im with peopel i seem tofuc it up lately.evenm the ones i lvoe most. ebst example: nikki.(shane also) ilove you mroe than anythign but im fuckin shitup sober or drunk. dunno what to do with myself dotn wanna stop feelign this feelign because i feel so amzing(is that a sign of alcoholism? cough cough) so i jsut wanted see what is like bny myself. its amazing so far. everythign is amazing. msuic soudns so good i can hoenstly cry. ithink ill cry tongiht. iwont act tough.... i need it. so much gojn righ tnow itll help so much. whavter. uil stop right now. mopst of you will think this is really weiord so dont reply. it feels good to jksut relaise it though. if im actign fucked up altely, im sorry, jsu tknow i love you guys. serosuly. nikki, nbno matter waht i do, please dont lave me. ilveoe you so much. sorry im so ay now. peace nuckas. ill prolly delete this soon ro jstu forget abotu til next i go on.
|Tuesday, June 6th, 2006|
June 6th, 2006
..... and yet theres no signs of the world endign or anythign. actually..... my moms awake so i guess im kind of wrong. good weekend. sort of. i coudl have gone without the "big asian guy" pulling a knife out on me cuz i told him hes quite a fibber for telling us he benched 390. my word still stands broskie, you aint puttin up no 390. even if i dotn remember how you looked. ha. hopefully this weekend we'll have one of those kickbacks at daniels and we get to stay longer. sorry my updates are all about my weekneds. not much goes on in my world of homeschool. i could tell you how radical playing ps2 all day is, doing sit ups and push ups naked in my backyard hoping to get somewhat of a tan, or how sexy xerox's new summmr coat looks, but i think ill pass. Current Mood: tired
|Monday, May 29th, 2006|
May 29th, 2006
mucho supremo weekend. ridiculous. everyone at daniels just chilling way too hard, hearign stories of my brother talking to people in armenian accents and farting with my drunk friends, drunken bbq with old men and women tellign me to be careful and have nikki take birth control right when they meet us, gracie getting brutally beaten by hughes, being in a world where its me and eric agaisnt everyone and tryign to figure out a plan on how were gunna win, juking out jake and making him freak out running aroudn the trampoline, staying up all night with nikki, nikki actuaklly being alloweed to enjoy her friends company.(hope you had fun i can definately get used to this. unless you were around this weekned, youre gunna hve no idea what im tlaking about. Current Mood: thankful
|Wednesday, May 17th, 2006|
May 17th, 2006
countin down til the weekend of course. suppose to be a riculous chill mode fest to the max of all weekends. ok im not sure if its gunn abe that good but it cant be bad with whats in plan. T.O., be prepared for the E-Boiz. monday nigh twas dope as fuck. robert let us chill at hi sold house cuz noones living there. ha. dont remember getting home at josh and zacks. zack wakes me up saying "GET UP WE HAVE TESTING." i start freaking out trying to figure out whats going on. go to school and take my test (my credits are behind so technically im in 11 grade.) tired as fudge and drunk. good freakin combo. umm fell asleep at 6 and woke up at 10:00 this morning. nikki hang out with us this weekend chump Current Mood: hot
|Friday, May 12th, 2006|
May 12th, 2006
i have no clue what im doing lately. ive got nothing and im not motivated to do anything. all i want to do is sleep away every day. im begiinign to act liek my mom mor ean dmore everyday. what a life i have ahead of me.
|Sunday, April 30th, 2006|
April 30th, 2006
chill fuckin weekend. kicked it way hard at the shillaci householed with noone home. 3 hour tlak with shayna friday and hten a little dart session drunk. umm sat was ridiculous. played oblivion finally. im ruined. gettin little 15 year olds and 14 years olds throwing up wasw funyn as fuck. ogin body with charlie and daniel hitting me oin the face adn knocking me ont he groudn was too good. beating stacys broin halo2 even htough i had way more to drink is quite satisfying. im sorry nikki youre dad is crazy and doesnt realize that what he are doing is jsut gunna make thigns worse so he should get off oyur fuckoign nuts and let oyu live yo life. stay strong soldier. thoigns will get better. for sure. weekends are somehow getting better and better. Current Mood: tired
|Wednesday, April 5th, 2006|
April 5th, 2006
gots me a new layout bitches. at first it was this realllly cuuute adam brody layout, but it would not work for some reason. no matter what i did. so with minor alterations and 2 hours of pain, ive got this masterpiece. html sucks. prolly would have taken liek 30 minutes if i had photoshop, but i jsu tkicked the paitn skillz up a notch. try gettin the broders on the pic to line up with the rest of the layout and getting that orange tint onthe pic all on paint. im not trying to brag or anything, but wow. sheez. man. 5 in the morning, and this is what im doing. i was gunna put mexinik up, but with the orange tint, you wouldnt be able to see her mexicanness. the face was almost worthy though. talk about a nostril shot nikki.MEXINIK Current Mood: accomplished
|Monday, March 27th, 2006|
March 27th, 2006
MY LOVE FOR YOU IS LIKE DIARRHEA. I JUST CANT HOLD IT IN. ha Current Mood: loved
|Saturday, March 18th, 2006|
March 18th, 2006
gayest fucking weekend ever. man. if i knew it would have been liekthis, i would have stauyed hoem the whole time. seriosuly Current Mood: enraged
|Tuesday, March 14th, 2006|
March 14th, 2006
hmmmm, really happy, and then theres thigns that are still gay. last weekend, extreme chillfest into a extreme lovefest. broke my ipods screen durign that time though. sux. my life is like incomplete without it. it seriously is weird without it. i had the biggest craving for guns up and i was like "ok lets listen" and then my ipod jsu tdoesnt even turn on now. man, i need a job so bad. if there was a way to make money without doing anything, id have soooo much fudgin money. sheez. ummm maxed out at 275 on flat.(that was for traniel) pretty sweet. eric complained about it so i gotta do it again. i think id prolly would have done it better if shanes arm pit hair wasnt crawling out of his t shirts sleeves winking at me while he spots me. ummm trying to think of things to say............nothign soo farr.........still nothing....... man weekned coem already...... still nothign to say....umm bye....stop reading..........please.........its relaly weird youre sitll reading this.............go do soemthing....... seriously.....wow this is weird.....ok bye......im serious.....wow.........bye Current Mood: sore
|Tuesday, March 7th, 2006|
March 7th, 2006
One breath at a time,I'll live day to day and the things that mean the most,could never be explained
Has your heart ever skipped a beat?
Have you ever had to face hardships?
Did you ever have to overcome
Your fears and make sacrifices?
Who we are and what we want to be,
Is nothing without the heart to see,
That where we're going is our own destiny,
Not another's life that was chosen for me
We keep on fighting to save ourselves,
But keep forgetting everyone else
I've seen the view from the bottom
There was a time when I let myself sink
Dying to be saved by someone,
Instead of living to the best of my ability
This world is what you make it
This life is what you make it
The choice is up to you,
Whether you love or hate it
This world is what you make itThis life is what you make it
The choice is up to you,
Whether you make or break it
I'll live my life for me
And we're still fighting,
Slowly gaining ground
Choosing our own battles
By making our own sound
man, we better be able to go to the 2nd annual march mustache madness showcase. if i dont see life long ill seriously go outside and kill someone. or ill break a bottle or something crazy. Current Mood: hopeful
|Monday, March 6th, 2006|
March 6th, 2006